for sen rea

i wake up i cry cry i eat i piss i work i drink drink drink i miss i don't understand i wait i can't believe i talk i run i try not to think i force myself to forget i plan i ask i beg i get pissed off i curse i write i howl i wish it were a dream i fear i try to escape i long to & yearn for i lie on my bed i worry i agree i don't let it show i guess i'm slowly going crazy