2009/11/29

this love

You invite me to Your place
I put my temple on Your collarbone
I am in Your arms

the story of Yours begins
the story of darkness, of cold
You hold me tight
You plunge the knife into my body
You won't let me shut Your mouth

it's Your never ending game
I love You against Your will
You take me into the next chapter
repeating Your mantra: go away
and You hold me tight

I have Your back before me, I follow it
won't lose You
You turn around, make sure I'm there
and go again: don't go after me
it's the worst that can happen to you
you fool, go back, You say
then I scream
so You turn round, take me again and lead me further

You're the greatest enemy of Yours
You come to me to torment Yourself
so I fight against You

and I win.

they don't love You like I love You

I wanna cut very carefully
like the river
precisely
to the core
blood is sweet it has no limits
if the source of blood dries up
it gives in
100 per cent or nothing
make that step
go, forget it, let it all go, let it all go.

2009/11/26

these good ppl

everybody worries. everybody is concerned.
of course they love you.
and you know what's my medicine, she said, I simply believe one day it's gonna be colorful again.
just don't take it that personally, said her friend.
we cannot help you in this, was someone else's reaction.
go out, you'll be better soon.
don't cry, don't cry, there's nothing you can do.
you obviously won't make it.
of course you can't handle it.
yes, it's good to be with your relatives when it happens.
oh, poor you.

I appreciate it all. but you'd just better shut up, really.

damn

all I'm asking is
leave me alone
&
don't ever leave me alone
is it THAT complicated??

2009/11/25

the black dog

the black dog
and me
best friend forever
the only one.



little star, you must have wanted the world to know

aurora
the eyes of a husky
rescue
float ice like a knife blade
low temperature of colors
S.O.S.
how do I go to the lighthouse



2009/11/06

Vishuddha

I speak of atheism in the language of Christianity.
I speak of women in the language of men.
I speak of You in loneliness.

I'm opening the Throat Chakra to start speaking the truth.