Ted Hughes (I)

"(...)
The shock of your joy
When you heard of that. Then the shock
Of your prayers. And under those prayers your panic
That prayers might not create the miracle,
Then, under the panic, the nightmare
That came rolling to to crush you:
Your alternative - the unthinkable
Old despair and the new agony
Melting into one famialiar hell.
(...)"

[from: "Visit"]