today I saw Warsaw in summertime before 6 am
she looked magnificent
as if she thought no-one was watching
2013/07/10
2013/07/09
there is a heart under this badge
our line managers are away on holiday leave, so we played some music in our open space
a forbidden thing in the communist kingdom of corporation
we were listening mostly to Eric Clapton
it was humanizing
2013/07/07
'I have arrived.'
funny
to wake up in the morning, write down that life is a scary thing and then have an absolutely perfect day.
my face and neck are suntanned, my camera is full of sunny photos, my mind is calm.
we left early in the morning. we sat in the sun, we ate soup from small bowls and we listened to piano, double bass and percussion trio that was working with silence like a well improvised meditation. the pianist had curly hair, white creased shirt and a warm, tanned face. and he absolutely loved what he was doing.
and now I have a keepsake, a bunch of dried lavender on the kitchen window sill.
in the evening J. got back and told me to get ready for some awesome party we were going to in a couple of weeks. and I felt a shadow on my heart, because I understood that today was over and new plans and moments are waiting in their impatient queue.
gone too fast to love this day enough.
too quickly to make sure I've remembered it well.
to wake up in the morning, write down that life is a scary thing and then have an absolutely perfect day.
my face and neck are suntanned, my camera is full of sunny photos, my mind is calm.
we left early in the morning. we sat in the sun, we ate soup from small bowls and we listened to piano, double bass and percussion trio that was working with silence like a well improvised meditation. the pianist had curly hair, white creased shirt and a warm, tanned face. and he absolutely loved what he was doing.
and now I have a keepsake, a bunch of dried lavender on the kitchen window sill.
in the evening J. got back and told me to get ready for some awesome party we were going to in a couple of weeks. and I felt a shadow on my heart, because I understood that today was over and new plans and moments are waiting in their impatient queue.
gone too fast to love this day enough.
too quickly to make sure I've remembered it well.
2013/07/06
broken chain link
earlier this week I found myself crying at the blood test point as I was watching a young woman with a little baby and her gray-haired father who assisted her with the baby food.
I was crying not because I will never have a husband and a baby and all these experiences I would share with my parents as grandparents.
I was crying because I don't want a life like that.
wanting it would make it all way easier.
I was crying not because I will never have a husband and a baby and all these experiences I would share with my parents as grandparents.
I was crying because I don't want a life like that.
wanting it would make it all way easier.
2013/05/26
this game allows for touching one another.
to watch my parents play like children in the center of science
made my heart sing.
the constellation of my family has reached perfection.
I have found myself
worried
caring
loving
immensely.
we were sitting in a café
with a view over a river
my dad talking about the binary system
my mom about her summer in Bulgaria years ago.
in the evening
when they left
tiny little pieces of sadness filled the air
fell on the floor
slowly
like a feather.
last night my loneliness was full of this woman and this man.
I slept blissfully.
made my heart sing.
the constellation of my family has reached perfection.
I have found myself
worried
caring
loving
immensely.
we were sitting in a café
with a view over a river
my dad talking about the binary system
my mom about her summer in Bulgaria years ago.
in the evening
when they left
tiny little pieces of sadness filled the air
fell on the floor
slowly
like a feather.
last night my loneliness was full of this woman and this man.
I slept blissfully.
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